shoot myself

While my brother and I were watching tv, this song comes up..

Me: arghhh, if I watch this song ONE more time.. I'll shoot myself..

Brother pretends to fiddle with the remote, looks at me, then looks at the tv..

Bro: actually u know what, go shoot urself!

*speechless*

'just' friends

How can we fuckin' just be friends after all that's happened?

How can we just be friends after I have all these ideas instilled in my brain?

How can we just be friends after those gazillion phone calls that u and I both made?

How can we just be friends when those phone calls clearly hinted the 'likeness'?

How can we just be friends after having 8-hour long conversations about nothing and still having a smile plastered across our faces by the end?

How can we just be friends after telling each other how we needed wake up calls, when all we really wanted was to hear each other's voice first thing in the morning?

How can we just be friends after managing to finish each other's sentences?


I'm sorry.
I need to tell u I can't go back.
But I cant.
Even though u're a bastard for leading me on.
I still miss u.
Fucker.

an ode to crazy friends

My friends are crazy and thats an understatement. Either that or they just miss me terribly. And I honestly believe in the prior.
So I sleep late these days. The likes of 5 am-ish. Last night [morning?] was no exception. At around 7:30 am, my phone goes ballistic ringing. I was more than half dead, so obviously I couldnt even figure out it was my phone, and when I finally came to and picked up, I hear the voice of my friend, who's also my roommate, in utter hysteria. This is how the conversation followed.

Me: Are u crazy! It might be late night where you are but its 7 bloody 30 here.. I'm SLEEPING!
S: I'm really sorry.. I didn't realise it'd be that early.. but listen, now that u are up, we reallyyyy need ur help here..
[apparently, a good 10 people were over...]
Me: okay, WHAT?
S: okay, so u know how u connect ur laptop to the tv and we watch movies..
Me: OMFG! Please DO NOT tell me u called me at THIS hour to ask me THAT!
S: Pleaseeeeeeee... we really wanna watch this movie.. and we've been trying for so longgg.. and we can't work it.. and ure our techie.. and we miss u.. and we love u.. [insert other buttering-up terms..]
Me: okayyy okayyyyyy.. how far off are u guys?
S: Well, we've connected the cable.. now what?
Me: *Groan*
So well, I explain the whole process to a technologically impaired person, while she asks a dozen questions.. I'm obviously agitated and half asleep.. but we end up successful in the end.
Me: I still can't believe u called me to ask me that!!
S: Thank u sooooooooo much.. I love u.. and I'm so sorry but I had no one else to ask..
oh and by the way, I knew exactly what the time difference was.. I knew it was 7:30am. Forgive me. Luv u again. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Me: WHAT!? I soooo knew! argh.. BYE!

And later on, I find out, that the call wasn't even made through a calling card. It was a direct call.
Talk about craaaaaaaaaaaazy.

And at that.. another one just said something that I have to post.
Referring to her love for Juggy D and the likes..
"My life is SO DEPRIVED without the deserved NECESSITY of a punjabi boy to serenade me with his music AND dancing."

hahahaha.

I LOVE my girlfriends. =D

lonely

Listening to: Akon - Lonely


You know you're lonely when you listen to sad songs, sigh and msn Encarta Instant Answers with the downs in your life, just for the sake of sharing your current state of mind with someone [something].

Amazing

sometimes boy band songs touch the strings of your heart and totally reach your soul with the lyrics..

its "Amazing" by Westlife this time...

old, but nevertheless, when I heard it.. it seemed like I'd voiced my feelings, and right there and then someone had penned them..

*sigh*

we could be more than just amazing...

song courtesy: http://www.seekasong.com

It has hence been proven.
I've lived in denial for long enough.
This establishes the fact..


...that I have NO will power.

ABSOLUTELY NONE.

I hate the block contact option on msn. I hate being used by it. I hate using it on people. And I generally don't block people because if I don't like them, I tell them that to their face.

Now when I have to use it. I feel guilty.
If I didn't use it, I'd feel guiltier.
Meh.
this sux.

I also realised it's been 4 years since I've been out of school. I feel so old.
sigh.

On a merrier note, one of my friend's much younger sibling is very creative. This one quote, quoted by him is hilarious!

"Barney is a dinosaur from our imagination.. he stuck his thumb right up his bum & died from constipation."

have I ever mentioned I NEVER liked Barney?