na chero humein, hum sataye huey hain
buhot zakhm seeney pe khaaye huey hain
sitamgar ho khoob pehchantey hain
tumhari adaon ko hum jaante hain
daghabaaz ho tum sitam dhaney waley
fareb-e-muhaabat mein uljhaaney waley
ye rangeen kahani tumhi ko mubarak
tumhari jawani tumhi ko mubarak
humari taraf say nigahein hata lo
humein zinda rehney do aye husn walo
- Kaali Kaali Zulfon Ke - Fana Bulandshahri
This eid I missed my family.. again.
This eid I spent all day at school attending classes.. again.
This eid I did not dress up or wear chooriyan or put on mehndi.. again.
This eid I did not make any 'eid mubarak' calls, or send any 'eid mubarak' messages or emails.. again.
This eid I studied all day.. again.
As far as the exciting stuff is concerned:
This eid I failed a midterm.
This eid I came home at 9pm after failing a midterm, to work on another assignment.
This eid I haven't slept enough.
This eid I didn't get the ONE phone call I'd been looking forward to for months.
This eid I did not eat biryani.
Eid has finally lost its charm for me, it's now just another day.. just another BAD day.
So yeah, eid mubarak to all who still care.
"Every action, thought and feeling is motivated by an intention, and that intention is a cause that exists as one with an effect. … In this most profound way, we are held responsible for every action, thought and feeling, which is to say, for our every intention."
- 'The Seat of The Soul', Gary Zukav
I'm sick.
And although medically this can't be proven.. but YOU make all the difference in the world. I suddenly feel better.
First u affect my sleep, then moods, and now my sickness.
This is just great.
Sometimes you're so fun. Other times, when you're even more fun, I wish I'd never known you.
haye, confusion.
okay, I've been tagged by mahnoorie AND I'm super bored too.. so here goes..
Today:
height: 5'4"
color: pale
piercing: ears, just. That too cuz mommy got 'em pierced when I was 3, otherwise not a fan..
tattoos: none, although given serious contemplation =P
Right Now:
Time: 10:10pm
Mood: very meh..
taste: chai
the weather: so so so wintery cold.. I hate it =/
bad habit: the recently developed smokes.
current crush: Patrick Dempsey aka McDreamy *drool*
biggest regret: none that I can think of.. maybe I should study for my midterm now so I don't end up with MAJOR regret of failing..
Perfume(s): umm, abhi to Calgon ka Hawaiian Ginger body mist.. but that's not perfume..
Thing I want to do: have that yummy chocolate fudge cake that I've been thinking of since that past week but somehow haven't got the chance to get to it..
Favourite
TV show: currently, Grey's Anatomy.. otherwise, NOTHING matches up to Friends..
book: oh, a lot many..
non alcoholic drink: ummm.. water.. yeah I know, boring but I gorge water down by gallons.. not a joke.
milk drink: mango bubble tea in milk.. I generally HATE milk though.. sometimes I wish was lactose intolerant.. yuck..
brand: not big on brands.. but umm.. old navy, smart set would definitely top the list if there was one..
color: black and blue..
emblem: whatever, I don't pay attention.. oh, I like the 'peace' sign, does that count?
perfume: Tommy Girl, Cool Water for women, Be-Delicious by DKNY
designer: *roll eyes* - all over-rated.. however in desi though, nomi ansari and HSY have VERY pretty colors..
Chocolate: ALL THE CHOCOLATE IN THE UNIVERSE!
Have I Ever
broken the law: not intentionally.. but maybe
misused credit card: nope, but I would =P
skipped school: yes
fell asleep in the shower/bath: no, I'm phobic.. sleeping in a shower/bath reminds me of horror-like murder in the movies..
had children: no, I dont think so..
been in love: i guess..
been hurt: no.. well - yes.
Random
have a job: nope, but I would want one..
My CD player has what in it right now: I don't have a CD player.. but my mp3 list's currently playing Dude Looks Like a Lady by Aerosmith..
if I were a crayon, the color? black
what makes me happy? good food, being with family and A.
When/What Was the Last
I got a real letter: um, last week.. if the bank statement counts..
got an email: today, some crap forward I deleted without even reading..
thing I purchased: a 4gb ipod nano.. YEA BABY!
TV program I watched: Dance Like The Stars.. erm.. Jerry Springer sucks as a dancer..
movie I saw in the theaters: Pirates of The Caribbean - A Dead Man's Chest.. in a theatre in Pakistan.. just like mahnoorie.. lol..
hugged: oh, I don't remember.. it's been long.. I'm not a huggy person.. I prefer not-hugging.
song heard: Dude Looks Like a Lady.. :S oh, and now it's changed to Every Breath You Take.. lovely.
place I was [besides home]: at school.. wow, I have no life..
phone call: mommy.. =)
was depressed: Last month, when my summer vacation at home finally ended.. but I think I might be slipping into the depressive mode again.. sux.
What Comes to Mind When I Hear
car: Beemer.. blue.. cabriolet..
murder: blood. blood. blood. stabbing. screams. blood. blood. blood.
cape: supermannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..
cell: phone?
fun: weddings..
shoe: I want MORE!
crush: high school
music: food for soul..
love: a whole lotta bullcrap..
chalk: hopscotch on the streets
phew. and I tag everyone who ever stumbles across my blog.. =)
a 54 year old drunk man hit on me today..
FIFTY-FUCKIN-FOUR!
I mean, I'd had enough of black men offering rides and gay men telling me I'm a pretty girl and then saying they didn't mean to be offensive..
but an OLD OLD man!
I seriously wanna like, go and drown myself now..
oh, and how do I know he was 54?
He TOLD me.. right about when he also told me where he was born, how miserable he was, how his wife left him for his best friend who was a black guy, how he wants to shoot them both, and how much welfare he gets for his apartment..
so yeah.
I'm just deciding on WHERE to drown myself..
suggestions are more than welcome.
It's been one whole year.
Unbelievable.
Time's gone by fast.
But we'll never know, how every moment spent by those survivors has crawled by. Missing their parents, siblings, friends.
In general, just missing a life they had until one fine-unfine day. One year ago.
This is an amazing ad for New York Fries. I cracked up the first time I saw it and now I stop and smile everytime I see it.
Plus, the fact that I absolutely love their fries, and the huge bucket in the ad, do wonders for a growling stomach during Ramadan.
[yeah, the camera in my phone is shit, so forgive the bad quality.]
October 2nd, 2006.
I saw Aerosmith and Motley Crue perform live!
The light, the energy, the amount of people, the fireworks, the goosebumps, crazy Steve Tyler antics, HOT HOT HOT shirt-less Tommy Lee drumming, and most of all - AMAZING music!
I'm officially wow-ed.
