'us'

merey kol ni..
heeriay merey kol ni..
dil mera le le ni..
aakey cheer ke le ja ni..

Rishi Rich is amazing, Juggy D matches the amazingness..

I love this song. For more than just the fact that it's very catchy and full of awesomeness.

It takes me back to random car rides, incessant unrepeated music thanks to the ipod, pretending to not acknowledge each other's presence, saying things to other people in the car while directing it towards each other, eye contact in the rear view mirror, unsuccessful beach plans, surprise show-ups, itwar bazar, drivery duties, non-stop text messaging starting at 8:30am with the word "morning" and ending at 3am or later with a "good night =)", rain-flood encounters, watching me fix my dupatta in the mirror and calling me 'self-obsessive' when I catch you looking, intentionally leaving the vicinity I'm in and then blaming me for not calling you back, looking all confused when ur phone beeps with my message even though we're a few footsteps away, arguing if the brown one with a tinge of black hair on his head is ernie or elmo, getting too close and then pulling away. Again and again... and again.

"SJ, how many times do I tell u, there's no US."

You tell me there's no us. But do u really mean it?

bittersweet

Talking to u..
I feel bittersweet emotions..
Sweet, because I thought you were the one.
Bitter, because I was wrong.

I feel like I'm leaving so much behind.

It's different this time. It's a lot harder, a lot more depressive, a lot being left at stake, a lot left unresolved, a lot remaining in denial.

The thought of coming back to it after a whole year makes me feel even more remorseful.

Why oh why couldn't I have stayed an extra week.

I hate being addicted to someone, it kills me.
I hate good byes.
I hate living across three different continents.
I hate having to leave.
I hate what-ifs.

I hate uncertainty.